Days 12 and 13

I got on the scale this morning.  Since I haven't been on the scale in a couple months, I have no idea how much I have lost since I started doing this, but I DO know that the number was lower than it was when I was on the scale a couple months ago, so YAY!  I try very hard to stay away from the scale altogether.  I read a book once that talked about being a slave to the scale, and it is SO TRUE.  I could be "ON IT" and feeling great, clothes fitting right, then get on the scale and see a number that is upsetting and BOOM.... no longer feeling great.  Because of a tiny electronic box.  My 20 year old daughter has NO idea what she weighs except when she goes to the doctor.  She thinks scales are stupid.  She just lives her life and eats normally, stops when she is full, and eats what she wants.  I am SO THANKFUL every day that I was able to raise her this way and not pass down my issues.  I worked hard to not ever limit food or make food an 'issue.'  I always had snacks in the house so that snacks were not "taboo."  And even though I hate fruit.  I worked hard to foster a love of fruit in both kids.

My 13 year old son is a whole other blog. 

Day 1 1

Well I was a bit lazy today,  but sticking to keeping the sugar down.   I was hankering for something sweet,  so I made one of my old standby concoctions that I use when low-carbing.   Whipping cream with a squirt of my sugar free vanilla sweetener,  drizzled with 2 tablespoons of melted (in the microwave with a little of the cream to make a ganache) semisweet chocolate chips,  and sprinkled with pecans.   Obviously this is an occasional indulgence,  but still a better choice for me than the crap I usually eat.

I actually ALMOST ran today and then foolishly decided to wait til Sean got home and I was going to make him go with me.  ...between my urge to run in 39 degrees and Seans school bus arrival,  the urge disappeared.

Day 10- Gym again!

I actually made it to the gym today!   I was lifting heavy and feeling like a beast.

Aaaaaaaand then within 10 minutes of each other,  two beautiful young,  toned girls showed up.   And they meant business.   I mean the full on 'this weighs 3 times what I do weight dropping on the floor with a giant crash each time' business.

I totally let it get to me and all I wanted to do was finish up my set as fast as I could and get the fuck outta there.   UGH!    SO NOT COOL OF ME!  :::::sigh:::::%

Day 9- Doin' fine

Not a lot to say today!  Still doing well.  Lonnie and Sean managed to hit the gym yesterday, but I was on-call, so I didn't go.  I should have.  I could have easily walked on the treadmill or lifted weights and left if I got called in... actually since the gym is in Bangor, I am closer to wherever I get called to... lesson learned!

On another note I need to figure out how to fix the giant-ass banner of this blog.

Day 8 and FEELIN' GREAT!!!

My weekly Monday morning iced-coffee photo that really illustrates nothing...lol

I have a love/hate relationship with Mondays.  I enjoy my job, and Mondays are usually a day where I get to do the stuff I enjoy doing at work (as opposed to my overnight shifts where sometimes I have to do things that I were prefer not to do).  So I look forward to Mondays.  BUT... like anyone else, I hate when the weekend ends!

"Sticking to it" this weekend went GREAT!  I had a 1/2 cup of rice in my taco bowl, and we put a little honey in our coconut shrimp batter, but all of those are still whole foods, and we kept it to a minimum, so YAY US!  In the past, we have always had a "cheat day."  This time, since my current goal was is just stick to this for a month, I decided on no cheat days.  This was a little scary.  But you know what I have learned. 

• Cheat days are BULLSHIT.  

• Cheat days are just terrible.  

• Cheat days are wrong.  

• Cheat days teach you to look forward to a day of gluttony.  

• Cheat days tell your brain that those are the "good foods" that you look forward to all week.   

• Cheat days make you have to "start all over again" EVERY WEEK.  Starting in the first place is hard enough!  

• Cheat days allow you to eat foods that are SCIENTIFICALLY ENGINEERED to make your body crave more, making you literally have to withdraw/detox from all that shit every week.  AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FO THAT! 

• Cheat days always have leftovers that you feel guilty about throwing away (you know... all those starving children in Africa ....or Detroit.), that stare you in the face the next morning begging you to just finish them off to get them out of the house.

EVERY TIME I have gone back to unhealthy eating, it has been when a 'cheat day' turned into a 'cheat weekend,' turned into a 'well we don't anything 'good' in the house Monday morning so let's start tomorrow,' turned into a, 'well I am super busy at work and haven't had time to grocery shop yet, so we may as well just call it off for this week..............'  Every. Time.

Days 6 and 7

OOPS  I didn't journal yesterday!

But fear not. This I haven't quit or fallen off the wagon or anything.  I was just BUSY!!!  Busy NOT going to the gym as planned. And it's football day today, so it's not happening today either :)

After a loooooooong day of visiting with family and then shopping.  I made DELICIOUS chicken bowls.  We had planned on going to Chipotle, but the mall area was crazy and we were all beat. So I turned my kitchen into an even better Chipotle!  SO GOOD!!!! 

Today is football food day. We have the stuff to make veggies and dip and coconut shrimp, and I am getting hungry just thinking about it!!!

Maybe I will have a piece of the delicious frittata that Lonnie made yesterday to tie me over :)  BTW.... FRITTATAS ARE SO INTO THE ROTATION!!

Day 5

SLEEPY! 

I have had probably the WORST work week I have had since becoming a crisis worker, but yet, I woke up today from sleeping after yet another  up-all-night shift feeling fantastic. I feel lighter, have more energy, and feel more mentally in control of things.  LOVES IT!

I went into my shift prepared and armed with a snack of rendered pepperoni chips and cheese.  I actually didn't get a headache like I usually do on night shifts.  Did still have nausea when the hardcore sleep deprivation kicked in.

Still haven't made it to the gym and that is driving me bonkers.  Couldn't have gone today anyway because they closed early and I had to sleep.  Lonnie and I plan to go tomorrow.  That place will be a shit show with all the New Year's Resolutioners!

Fun low carb research today!  Football snacks....

http://lowcarbdiets.about.com/od/lowcarbholidaymenus/a/locarbsuperbowl.htm

I think we are going with coconut shrimp and veggies and dip.  CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!

I also found this that I can't wait to make and eat for breakfast every morning this week!!!  We also want to try turning spinach artichoke dip into a frittata!  YUM!

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/47044/spinach-and-potato-frittata/

Now off to research some low carb cocktails.......